Y’all. Rachel’s heart is beautiful. She is one of those people I feel like I know already, even though we’ve never met in real life. The way she invites us into her journey is so warm, gentle, and compassionate. She creates space through her words to let others know that their stories matter too, and her approach to grief reminds us that we are not alone in whatever hard things we are facing.

Here is Rachel’s Freedom Story. 

Self-help, independence, and productivity are the values our culture esteems, but what if I told you interdependence, vulnerability, and rest were more powerful?  We’re not made to do this alone. We need one another. God has designed us to live in community with one another. There is power and freedom in authentic community, and my own grief journey has revealed this to me in surprising ways.    

We never thought it could happen to us again.  After losing a baby in early miscarriage, then burying our sweet son Clive, we never anticipated that we could lose another newborn.  We welcomed a new pregnancy with joy and fears, holding fast to God.

Our darling Winnie was in our arms for 9 days before she unexpectedly died.  We were thrown into the pit of grief again, and it was even deeper this time.  How could we go on? Was this to be our life now—endless grief?

Somehow we survived, day by day, taking the manna as it came to sustain.  We sat in the darkness, numb and broken, for a long, long time. We wrestled with faith, purpose, pain, and trauma.  We processed.

I’d learned a lot from our previous losses, and I’d found a surprising freedom in my grief journey.  I’d seen the power of authenticity and vulnerability and how it connected me to others, and I knew that it was worth the pain to share my pain. It wasn’t easy to press into this pain.  It still isn’t easy to share my burden and pain with others, but I am seeing the reward of it beginning to unfold in my life. Through my faith and community, I found freedom in my grief.    

I found freedom to stay in the darkness a long while, recognizing and allowing the broken world to just be. There is hurt all around us, but instead of granting time for lament we often believe we need to push through into joy, worship, and gratitude.  God grants us freedom to lament. I found freedom to feel my emotions—not becoming controlled by them but by validating their place in my life. The Psalms and Job are full of honest lament that is disoriented and dark.  With the outpouring of lament and a heart willing to feel pain, God meets us in our deepest hurt. He doesn’t push us past it, but sits with us.

I found freedom in not rushing into finding a lesson, a learning, or a purpose in the pain.  If that was to be revealed, I would allow it to unfold with time.  Some questions will never be answered on this side of heaven. Journals piled up, filled with prayers and questions.  I wanted to find an answer to my pain, but I realized that put an undue pressure of performance into a sacred time of grief.  My efficient and introspective bent had to rest and allow myself to learn slowly as God revealed truth in my grief.

I found freedom in being incapable.  The Message’s paraphrase of Job 6:13 says, “Do you think I can pull myself up by my bootstraps? Why, I don’t even have any boots!”  I laughed aloud when I first read this, but felt so validated. Self-help, productivity, and independence didn’t have a place in my grief.  I couldn’t be on the giving side of relationships. I had to allow others to help me. I had to see my own brokenness and inability, and believe that God had granted me community to be His hands and feet to me.   

In many ways, it’s hard to be on the receiving end of relationships.  It’s easier to help others than allow others to help me. But I absolutely cannot do life alone, and I know we weren’t designed to.  We all need friends and family. We need to be the ones to throw our arms around those that are hurting and we also need to be the ones to have arms thrown around us as we hurt.  We need to recognize needs in others and we need to make our needs known so others can recognize our needs.  

I found freedom in sharing my honest doubts and wavering faith.  I was met with understanding and grace by my friends and family.  I’d like to share one of the most powerful prayers prayed over me in my deep grief.  

“We believe in God the Father Almighty, Maker of heaven and earth. And in Jesus Christ, His only Son, our Lord.   I say WE, because we know that sometimes you can’t believe alone.  We carry you.  Even when you can’t believe, we believe for you.”

This is the power of community.  This is the freedom that community grants us.  We learn from one another. We carry one another, sharing burdens and joys.  We experience the heights and depths together, and we do not rush quickly into what feels comfortable but linger in the confusion together.  

Recently, I had an image of someone running a race and becoming injured.  As she stumbled along and fell, the other athletes ran by. Two paused, looked upon her with compassion, and lifted her arms upon their shoulders.  They carried her, allowing her weight to lean upon them. She was a hindrance. She was hurting and broken. She was unable. But, they saw her and carried her.  

As a community, we can do the same.  We can look to those who are hurting and see what they have to offer—although it is not much in the way of practical help, it is much in the way of soul lessons.  Their grief isn’t a burden, but a shared experience. Suffering connects us to one another and to the suffering of Jesus. It helps reframe our minds, fixing them on things unseen and eternal.  It gives freedom to live connected in community, as God intended.

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.

2 Corinthians 1:3-4 (NIV)

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Rachel George writes at samandrachelgeorge.com, sharing about hope in the midst of life’s darkest moments.  She believes in the power of stories and community, loves being outside, and is thrilled to own a coffee shop in her little Midwestern town.   She’s working on her first book about creatively processing through grief with eyes fixed on Jesus, and views her life journey as an opportunity to help others through their grief.  You can find her on Instagram @rachelgeorgewrites or on Facebook at Sam & Rachel George.